I Went Away ..

The more than a week long holidays that I had taken recently, was really good to my emotional wellbeing. Though I had put on a bit of weight during that time from feasting too much, overloading my stomach. 


But I had a great rest – a mental one that is. People say if you find yourself in a rut whether mentally, emotionally or even spiritually – it's best to go away somewhere – for a breather, sort of like removing yourself from the uninspiring place that you are in, to another place with different view, different scenery, different surroundings, and that it might just channel your mentality, emotionally or spiritually into a more focused state. For spiritual aspect, you have got to find a more serene quiet place.


Back to me, I had felt I had been able to conclude on a few decisions that had to be made, on some issues of my life, issues I felt had been hovering over my head – waiting and lingering for an answer, in which I had difficulties coming to one. So, it worked out well in the end. I do think now I have a clearer inkling on where I should be heading now at this point of my life – mentally, emotionally and spiritually.


Below are a few pictures of my getaways ..


1) I-City

2) Colmar Tropicale

God Bless The Japanese Tsunami Victims

The recent earthquake (on March 11, 2011) in Japan that resulted in a major tsunami which caused a terrible massive flood is indeed utterly devastating. Nature's wrath is indeed unpredictable and unforeseeable.

That goes just to show what we have long known but choose to take it lightly – that human life is really fragile. One minute we're breathing, the next minute we might probably be gone. Well, the old time sayings of 'Take each day to enjoy it as if it's the last day of your life' may hold useful and relevant come to think of it.

My thoughts and prayers are with the people of Japan – especially the ones who are directly suffering the calamities and the ones indirectly suffering in which perhaps their loved ones are greatly affected.

My prayers to the victims ...

Amen.

My Focus !

One thing I would like to thoroughly change myself is to have the mighty ability to remain focus on the current state of tasks or thoughts or even moods/emotions ESPECIALLY when I sit down to write.


Thoughts, ideas, inspirations seem to come as fast as they could go too. That's what usually gets me very, very frustrated. I could not hold on to it fast enough to narrate it down. My focus ... The first few sentences are often the toughest ones for me. That's why I can never be a technical writer.. I excel very much in creative writing.

Gone were the days when carefree leisurely mood dictates my writings of stories/topics. Or perhaps I haven't dug enough deep down inside just yet. Or perhaps I'm afraid too. Or maybe I'm unconsciously evading because I don't want to? But then I will have too..

Because my writing desk has a nice and inspiring view now that I've shifted it near the window.

I could see sunrise, Komtar, Pg Bridge, Pg ferry (albeit 2cm in size - ^.^), planes cruising over and by, birds flying high, the blue sea, view of Seberang Perai, and last but not least, the best part - large white clouds in a vast of clear blue sky just above me whenever I lift my head up high...

I have no excuse now not to write more and write better as well ... I'll force myself if I have too..

Au Revoir 2010 ; Happy New Year 2011 ..

This Year 2011 is my Year -> Rabbit !! So, everyone - be NICE to me !!

Esp Tiger n Dragon - or I wont give u carrots... Hehe..

As for Horse n Snake - I juz want to say I adore u both ..

And as for my Pig (well, wat more can I say) - "Te Amo".. very absolutely !!!

Other animals - hmmmm... I'm ok wz all of U.. !!

AND ultimately - to all my fellow Rabbit-ians ... It is our Year !!! Lets stand United - may tis year bring more luck, health, love n prosperity to us ALL !!! .... Hahahahaha!!!

By the way ... what do u think of my new NEW YEAR shirt arh ??? (^o^) ..

Happy New Year everyone !!! ♥ ♥ ♥

Too far ...

Today is the birthday of someone very, very special in my life... and i miss that person so very dearly... =(

Too far... too far, it's just too far away...

When Only Can I Get My Glorious Mood Back ??

Fed up !!! Fed up !!

Can't seem to be in my past glorious mood lately...

Damn !! Just can't seem to get it back ..

Inspirational juice is running dry too ...

Is it the weather ?? Is it the monotonous work ?? Is it the long hours ??

Is it the lack of venturing out - like I used to ??

Or missing someone too much ??

Or plain lazy ?? No, no - it can't be ..

Mood, glorious mood ...please come back !!!

Days and God ..

When the days are empty, where do you think God is ?

When the days are lonely, do you ever think if God is around ?

When the days are sad, will God appear to cheer us ?

When the days are difficult, is God going to make our hardship lighter ?

When the days like today, when I question and question about and of God,

...will God give me the answers ?


~ eVe ~

I Have Not Really Slept Past Few Days...

Since I got very sick last week, I had started going to bed early - like 10pm every night (thought of having some good rest for the body) and will only get up about 7.30am the next morning. That's like about 9.5 hours of sleep.

But what puzzles me is, every morning when I get up, I still feel like as if I have not slept at all.

I think I have an inkling on why I have not really 'slept'.

Mind was having funny-funny deep dreams.. it was like real.. though can't really recall the dreams. But remembered there were familiar people with 'like' real conversations, going to places, etc.

Old folks tend to say that the 'soul' had wandered around to the other side or dimension of the world. That's why, the soul had not really slept. What kind of world, what kind of side or dimension - I don't know. Beats me.

I don't quite believe it but how else to explain my physical tiredness even after more than 9 hours of sleep ?

Ah ..it's time for bed now. I hope I really 'sleep' tonite !

Seven (7) ...Months

Seven months plus had passed ..

Some things remain the same, .. some things had utterly changed.

Some changes I'm glad, .. some I preferred it had not happened (and I want to quickly forget all of it).

Some things I'm still waiting wishfully, ... some I pray and hope it won't be happening.

Whatever I wish, whatever it is, whatever will be ...

It's a responsibility, my responsibility to carry on .. for a new beginning, hopefully ...

Listen Here !!

Can I ask - "What do you want from me ?"

Can I say - "I dont like the way it's heading."

Can I tell - "This is suffocating.."

Can I lament - "I would hav preferred it to be like last time"

Can I express - "But I do honestly wish the best for you"

Can I just ask again - "What IS IT that you want from me ?"

~ asking, saying, telling, lamenting, expressing n asking again ~