Will you really promise me not to smoke Gudang Garam cigarettes again? It is very strong - I don't want you to be further addicted to smoking than you already are now. It is not good for your health.
I know you had said you won't smoke it again - and I hope you can keep your word on this. Cause this concerns your health. And I don't want to have your health deteriorated prematurely. I want to be able to see you around, be near me, until you are well into your golden age.
The more than a week long holidays that I had taken recently, was really good to my emotional wellbeing. Though I had put on a bit of weight during that time from feasting too much, overloading my stomach.
But I had a great rest – a mental one that is. People say if you find yourself in a rut whether mentally, emotionally or even spiritually – it's best to go away somewhere – for a breather, sort of like removing yourself from the uninspiring place that you are in, to another place with different view, different scenery, different surroundings, and that it might just channel your mentality, emotionally or spiritually into a more focused state. For spiritual aspect, you have got to find a more serene quiet place.
Back to me, I had felt I had been able to conclude on a few decisions that had to be made, on some issues of my life, issues I felt had been hovering over my head – waiting and lingering for an answer, in which I had difficulties coming to one. So, it worked out well in the end. I do think now I have a clearer inkling on where I should be heading now at this point of my life – mentally, emotionally and spiritually.
The recent earthquake (on March 11, 2011) in Japan that resulted in a major tsunami which caused a terrible massive flood is indeed utterly devastating. Nature's wrath is indeed unpredictable and unforeseeable.
That goes just to show what we have long known but choose to take it lightly – that human life is really fragile. One minute we're breathing, the next minute we might probably be gone. Well, the old time sayings of 'Take each day to enjoy it as if it's the last day of your life' may hold useful and relevant come to think of it.
My thoughts and prayers are with the people of Japan – especially the ones who are directly suffering the calamities and the ones indirectly suffering in which perhaps their loved ones are greatly affected.
One thing I would like to thoroughly change myself is to have the mighty ability to remain focus on the current state of tasks or thoughts or even moods/emotions ESPECIALLY when I sit down to write.
Thoughts, ideas, inspirations seem to come as fast as they could go too. That's what usually gets me very, very frustrated. I could not hold on to it fast enough to narrate it down. My focus ... The first few sentences are often the toughest ones for me. That's why I can never be a technical writer.. I excel very much in creative writing.
Gone were the days when carefree leisurely mood dictates my writings of stories/topics. Or perhaps I haven't dug enough deep down inside just yet. Or perhaps I'm afraid too. Or maybe I'm unconsciously evading because I don't want to? But then I will have too..
Because my writing desk has a nice and inspiring view now that I've shifted it near the window.
I could see sunrise, Komtar, Pg Bridge, Pg ferry (albeit 2cm in size - ^.^), planes cruising over and by, birds flying high, the blue sea, view of Seberang Perai, and last but not least, the best part - large white clouds in a vast of clear blue sky just above me whenever I lift my head up high...
I have no excuse now not to write more and write better as well ... I'll force myself if I have too..